Dear Plantar, felt you years ago in both feet. Now you're back again in my left foot. Please go back to where you came from. Been dealing with you again for weeks. New shoes are on the way. Hope it helps.
Up at 3 am. Slept hard since 730 PM. Ghosting through life. Life goes too fast. Appointment, appointment, appointment. I am not kidding when I say, it goes fast as you get older. 2017 seems yesterday. 1994 Graduation was a minute ago. The only thing changing really is my body. Can't go backwards, just trying to make it better. After 40 something, things started changing. Where is the fountain of youth? I wish I would be stuck at age 18-25, somewhere in there. Smart enough to know and know now, what I should have known then.
Listening to some music, of course, as per usual this morning. Playlist running on auto pilot. Van Halen (Hagar), Aerosmith. Mazzy Star, Heart. (thus far) I think I need a coffee refill. Anyone? I am down in the mancave musical basement.
People I surely miss. James Gandolfini, Chris Cornell, Kurt Cobain. I don't think anyone in their right minds want to die. I always wonder what Jim Morrison, all these people would be doing with their music and or lives at this point had they survived. It makes you wonder about depression and or our life situations. How much of the problems in your life at hand is because of life (the way it is structured for us) *not much we can do it about it* - having to have money or go hungry, homeless. How much is NOT our fault and how much is self made? I was just talking to a person at work about this.
This coming week I have just more appointments, super annoying, but better safe than sorry. New ones. I just went to Syracuse with my daughter Sunsetta for a cystic fibrosis appointment last week and there is a type of med that is new and breakthrough med. It is supposed to help her immensely. It is supposed to get in her age group this month. There are some potential side effects, let's hope not. I just want her to have a super long life! Of course! Thing is, not much will change in her treatments at this time, yet.
Technology drives me nuts. You don't know who is who anymore behind the other end of the screen. We are all ghosts. Ghosting. I love technology and surely spend a lot of time on it, but how do you know? Just random thought of the day.
I hope this week to get some music in. I just want to bang the drums all day. Music is an odd business. I love doing it, love what I do. Jamming with a couple others now, on occasion hoping this will go somewhere. I used to care so much about age and age group playing. Now I don't give a huh. Why should I? More experience. Maybe more fun. I don't know. I have a huge love crush on music. I think I am married to it. I will probably never feel any different. I could do it all day. Just about. So much bubbling over in me to write about. Should I? Shouldn't I? So much creativity. Been on a good streak lately, but taking a break that I don't want to take. I would love to get out playing again. Stress has taken over my mind the last couple years however. It makes me forget things, what was that lyric?? Hope I never need a Presidential Teleprompter lol.
I will leave you with some Def this morning. Work day, have a good day.
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