I believe I was 18 here. (senior picture) I went to two high schools. Gouverneur NY/Indian River High School. Indian River was cool to me because it was rich in diversity. I was only there about 2 years however. I left to Graduate in Gouverneur in 94'.
I was popular. Yep. But, I took it in stride. I always was neutral. I didn't let any of that go to my head. I wanted to like ( all people ). There were just some though, that no matter what you did, or didn't do, they still would just not like you for no particular reason. Well, maybe they had reasons, but I don't know what.
Years later I was told "you know how many girls liked you?" I was like huh? Why am I last to know this lol. I was "living in my head". I had little self esteem too. I was told to play sports in school... did not. I had little support from home. My parents divorced as well. The extent of sports was my love for gym class, almost manically running around. Also, my brother and I loved wrestling back then (WWF, WWE) so we explored making a wrestling ring and practing moves. (DON'T TRY THIS AT HOME!) We were young professionals. I loved volleyball too. I liked football and played with all the area kids in the hamlet of Oxbow NY.
High School. I would not have made it if not for a good friend named "Pat" and the high school principal stayed on top of me senior year. I was sleeping most the time, missing school. Pat would come to my house and wake me up, make me go. Mr. Hawley was my rock, he listened to me and let me in his office when I needed time out. He was very good to me. Thankful for that. I graduated with high grades, but I still don't know how I ever made honor roll that year a couple times.
Later, I was off to SUNY CANTON for a small time in college. I shared a room with 2 others. Originally it was supposed to be 2 of us. The other third wheel was one of those that just did not like me at all. He busted my guitar, telescope etc. when I was not there one day. It was a BIG party. I was not ready to be serious. I was dazed and confused. I was soul searching and felt college was a way to "weed people out" that were not fit to the mold of society. Now, (been a while) I went through a lot of personal changes to become who I am today. I love, like myself and that is OK. If I had not gone through all that, I would not be who I am today. So, I started school again in my 30's. I went to JCC in Watertown NY. Successful. I actually enjoy it. I love to learn. I am geared in the Chemical Dependency field and on National Leadership Society. I have not been able to return to school in some great years. I sometimes miss it.
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