Waking up to this vibe describes how I feel this morning. GOOD MORNING! Just the music, not the lyrics! Mornings I sometimes feel like I can take on the world. Can't play drums yet, too early, but, coffee rolling and hyped. Another day. Another chance at life. By afternoon I start dragging. I am not an all day coffee drinker either. Can't do that. Too much.
Mik, Kim, has some good news. Her poem won to go into a new magazine from the Syracuse NY area and she is stoked about that. She is having it laminated and will be taking it to Syracuse with a friend driving her there, soon. Kim's knees are bad. She is going to need double knee replacement. Cringe. She is 5 years older than I am. The last straw was when she switched jobs and tried to do a job that was very physically demanding on her legs and knees, body. She used to run half marathons and I used to drive water to her half way. She is a fighter. She still goes for a walk a day. Yesterday, she was out all day to get her poetry laminated and brought home clothes for our daughter (I usually do most, all the shopping) and brought home secret Father's Day gifts. She already gave me something for my goatee. (beard) Some kind of softener. Smells good and makes my chin tingle.
Sometimes I would rather type than talk in person, at least at first, if I don't know you well. Sometimes the greatest of relationships, regardless of where they are headed are best built on a solid foundation. As Alanis Morissette said in her lyrics, "All I need now is intellectual intercourse". I am 45 now. I think I am bubbling over with things to give, things to say, creativity running its course. I miss interactions. I crave it. In all shapes and forms. Yesterday, I received a bunch of calls from friends and that felt good. Looks like band practice is out another week. :( I still will be home recording. I am a mad musical scientist.
Mik makes fun of me about relationships, as prior to meeting her I had a song lyric that (Fade) that said- "to thousands I've been attracted". Yeah, I have fallen hard hit my head, crashed on the way down before. Been knocked out. It's hard to get back up. Going through the (E)motions. I have dated some doozies. I had some relationships that I was later thinking, "What was I thinking?" Haven't we all? For instance, I tried an internet relationship. In the end I got clobbered in the face a bunch of times, left a mark, had to call the police, didn't press charges, just wanted her gone. I haven't heard from that girl since. No, I'm not perfect. But perfect for someone as it should be. Soul Mates? Do you believe in that, or love at first sight? I know I am loved by family. I am lucky. A lot of people don't have that. (rekindled my relationship with my Mother, Brother and Stepfather) this year after my father and stepfather were diagosed with cancer. They are still fighting the good fight. I work with people with addictions and I see every weekend at the site that a lot of them have no family. No friends. I was on that path to destruction in life before and luckily I managed to not die. I managed to overcome that lifestyle. I thought "using" meant more creativity. I kind of fell in the mistake, footsteps of some know rockers. If I had not crashed and burned and fell into the never ending falling pit, I may not be who I am and or even be alive. It is a double edged sword at times.
Here is a little CP. Love this song. Love her. I need to learn more about her. Not a big "Jar of Hearts" fan however.
I fix my posts after posting, if you see mistakes, it will most likely be fixed asap.
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