When we feel down and out. When we have relationships (friends or otherwise) go the wrong way. Am I the only one that subjects myself to TORCH (er) ? I have always done this. It's like being little, or young and (memory) looking at the mirror watching yourself cry. It's weird we do this to ourselves, at least I do. Maybe it's because I have music in my veins and mind. Maybe.
I will never when I was in my teens. (divorce, living with my Grandparents, depression, self medicating) (I do not condone any use) I do not use. Anymore. It's been about 15 years now. I do not judge though, however. I do understand. I remember. I may have a drink, but not to get drunk or hardly ever even a buzz. I just don't condone any drug useage. More or less, the harder of hards. The ones that actually can take your life. The ones that you are so addicted to you end up in a mental health facility, Halfway House, jail, prison, hospital, or even dead. Life is short enough. Addiction tricks you, or at least it did me for a long time that I was "healthy" when really "I was Dying". Another song I penned. Kind of reminds me of Aerosmith songs about drug useage. "Monkey On My Back" comes to mind. Just remember, there is loving people, caring people out there among us. There are people that want to help. Staff, family, or friends, or even a stranger. I got off track there with a ramble on. I meant to add, I called a local radio station crying my eyes out and requested a song "Yellow Led Better" by Pearl Jam. This was my reason for writing this blog as I sit here listning to a bunch of these songs. Alanis's "Torch" reminded me of these times and moments.
One of my tunes (youtube, spotify) called " Out of the Blue" actually refrences this. The lyrics say, "Playing my life, some sad song DJ". A song about different relationship moments in my life.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nF7BP-1K7NM (Out of the Blue)
Bill Draper.
Sometimes when I am down and out, or in thoughts about the why, who what, where, how, I write the best music. That isn't the only way music can be written however. I have some upbeat type tunes too. I don't want to fall into some trapdoor sun, thinking I can only write when struggling with inner emotions. (sad, depressed, angry) etc.
Stay well. Stay healthy. Stay tuned in. Dream big. DREAM BIGGER. Have a good day, week, month, year, years, life.
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